The Dysfunctional Pilgrim

"Failure! Failure!" cried David. "Every bar of my music cried, 'Failure'. It shrieked from the violins, blared from the trombones, thundered from the drums. It was written in all the faces -....What of my soul? False to its own music, its own mission, it's own dream. That is what I mean by failure, Vera.......oh how my music mocked me! And you, so fearless, so high above all that has come to pass, how you must despise me, despise me!" ~The Melting Pot, Israel Zangwill (retold from the play by permission of The Macmillan Company) Read this short story a long time ago. But the way he described failure...amazing. Everytime I fail in something, these lines start ringing in my ears. BTW, this story is awesome too. If you can find it, read it. Sigh.

Take me somewhere far away far away, where the nights are long No it won't be a short stay I want to hear the eagles call Where the shinning stars fly like dust the yawning void of darkness is there Gone are the people I refuse to trust no one to please, none to care Just take me somewhere far away I need no wisdom, I want no pain Grief and anger be blown away Nothing to lose, no more to gain Just let me lie on the blood red sand smell the breeze in the dusty air There's naught left in me to stand responsibility be hanged, duty be damned.

I still remember the day you said you felt “horny”. I don’t quite remember what you really wanted to say. I think you meant to say that you were inspired? Motivated? Well, “berahi” is a strong motivation. Yes indeed. It was one of those moments that would go down in history. Oh the awkwardness, oh the humiliation! Bwahahaha…… Happy birthday to our Resident Genius, Clement Kwan! =) Thanks for being the conscience of our gang. Thanks for insisting on teaching those who want to copy your work instead of just handing them your book. Thanks for glaring and punching our friends hard when they exclaim an expletive. Thanks for being supportive over the things we are passionate about. Thanks for bumming with us when we fail and for coaxing us back to life (we must’ve been a real pain sitting beside you). Thanks for those random moments…shutting my book when I’m studying and calling US nerds when YOU are the one memorizing bio facts (speaking of bio…remember HER?). Thanks for the times we discus